I want things to get better, the only person that came to mind is you
so when my pain is waging a war inside and the walls I built are breaking our ties
I remember the light
Some people call it complexity or a person that’s confused, but this love that I’m entangled in
This love just wont diffuse
I miss all the smiling, believing in the promise
But I promised I’d be home and like I forgot it where back to talking nonsense
and my soul screams liar cause I lied again.
I didn’t mean to but it keeps happening
And I’m criminal to my own crime
the inflicter of pain 24 hrs since I last prayed and i cant hold my gaze
I can hardly stand, this deen fights inside me like it has it’s own plan
but too soon i press play an were back to the phase were i promised I wouldn’t listen to music again
And i swore when fajr came a new dawn would break
but his handcuffs are tight and i succumb to his ways.
Darkening light through his troublesome ways
And the path I’m on starts to narrow and blaze.
Prelude to a collection of decisions i made.
Sometimes glasses don’t fix blurry vision
And wishing on your life don’t bring about deliverance
were all pursuing something and sometimes we feel empty
realisation comes from understanding happiness is a journey not a destination
you cant arrive at peace, its the test were facing
days mean struggle
Ive been struggling for days, trying to persuade myself this feeling will fade
I miss her who she used to be fulfilled, content
widowed of this world now its the mirror she resents
Her previous position brought her freedom and relieve
now she stares at a female who’s measured by magazines/
and defines herself when she looks at screens
she misses the ‘old her’ is what she mutters in her sleep
painful memories of who she used to be and her heart cant take it no longer wants to beat
cause she gave it true purpose and its the strongest memory
prevalent in her soul and she knows the remedy but again this world wins incontestably
and her tears dry at the end of the melody
And everything reminds her of he fading soul
replaced with Aesthetics and material goals.